The Waiting Game... Again

I am so annoyed with this perpetual waiting game. I am now in the wait to O and it seems like it is taking FOREVER! I have been using my OPKs every day for the past three days and they are all giving me light lines but nothing dark enough to call it positive yet. I was hoping to start the BD marathon and go every day until O, but Jon is getting sick and wasn't up to it last night. Ger... You can't very well make a baby if you aren't doing it! lol I know I sound horrible right now... I'm mad at my hubby for being sick and not putting out. It sounds even worse putting it in writing. Hopefully he will start feeling better today and we can start the marathon tonight. I'm expecting to O in another 2-3 days and that's how long his little swimmers will survive so we need to get to it! I have really high hopes that things will work out this cycle and I just KNOW that if it's not this cycle it'll be the next one. I just have to make it happen! I feel like He-Man... "I HAVE THE POWER!"

Re-analyzing My Predictions

I decided to take another look at my previous psychic predictions since they were right about my last pregnancy. They both say March which means that I could either conceive this cycle or next cycle for it to be right. One says from the cycle that begins in March, so next cycle, but here's the crazy part - she says the EDD will be Christmas Eve and if I have a long LP of like 16 days for this cycle and then O on CD17 (I'm normally 16-17) of the next one, my EDD according to FF will be Christmas Eve! How crazy is that?! I still hope that one's wrong and I can get it on the first try again though! If that doesn't work though I'm more than happy to have a little Christmas miracle! :D

Back At It!

So this morning, at 6:15, AF decides to wake me from my peaceful slumber to announce that she has finally decided to grace me with her presence! I am sooo beyond pissed at her right now... she is 6 days late, made me get up early on a Friday and will be here through Valentine's day. Talk about ruining a romantic weekend...

Oh well, at least she showed up on her own and I didn't have to do anything crazy or call the doc. Now I can officially say, I AM TTC AGAIN!!!!! YAY!!!!!!

Murphey's Law Strikes Again

Why is it that when you want AF to stay far far away, she shows up ahead of schedule and when you want her to show up early, she decides to be fashionably late? I have been thinking for the past three days that I'm going to start any minute and a few times I've even gone to check and still nothing. I know that having a nice long luteal phase is a good thing. It means that your body is producing enough progesterone to be able to sustain a pregnancy and keep the baby healthy until the placenta can produce hormones on its own. Anything 12 days and above is considered good so that's what I was hoping for. Here I am on day 14 and I just don't care anymore... I want AF so I can start my planning and try again!!

On a positive note, I had the most amazing weekend with Jon! We didn't really do much, but we had the most amazing reawakening I guess you'd say. We stayed up talking until almost 2 in the morning and really did some reconnecting. It was so so great. Plus, we have been on the lean side with our BDing lately. somewhat because of the m/c and all the aftermath and somewhat because we both hated using the condoms, but after our reconnection emotionally we did some rather fantastic baby dancing! And the next day, and the next. lol I don't think that we've had this much open communication in a long time. It wasn't just the talking about what's on our minds thing cuz we are really good about doing that every day, it was talking about our deep emotions and things that we purposefully don't tell each other because we either don't think they'd understand or because we haven't felt comfortable expressing it. It was really eye opening. I learned that Jon is just about as anxious to get prego as I am, he just doesn't talk about it as much. I also learned that he's a little scared to be around babies cuz he has never really been around them before.

Anywho, I'm rambling now but I just thought I'd share my weekend stories. :D

Pic of My Future Child

So I went to this website: http://www.makemebabies.com and uploaded pics of both Jon and I and it is supposed to make a composite of what our future baby will look like. It's pretty cute and totally possible. ;)

Anxious to Try Again

So I have been seriously anxious to try again for the last two months as you may know, but I think that Jon is actually really getting into it too. Last night as we were lying in bed he asked me when I ovulate. He hasn't asked me about that at all since we started! I told him that we still have another week until the end of this cycle and then another two weeks until I ovulate again and he seemed a little disappointed that it wouldn't happen sooner. He asked me if I was excited to try again and I said of course! I asked if he was and he smiled big and kissed me and said that he was too. :) He said that he hopes it's easier this time and there's not so much anxiety. I laughed and said that as soon as I get a BFP I am going to be FILLED with anxiety until I get an ultrasound. It's just the nature of the situation. But I reassured him that I was sure that this time would do the trick.

I decided to upgrade to the VIP Fertility Friend for 90 days since they were having a special ($17) and I really like to be able to use all the other tools when I'm stressing over whether or not it worked before I can test. That plus I really like being able to enter in all of my symptoms and compare my chart to the last time I was prego and other people's and stuff like that. I figured since I don't need to buy any more HPT's or OPK's since I now know when exactly I need to use the ones I've got I can spend that money on this. :)

Anywho, now I'm just counting down the days til I try again. Brooke, you're about a week ahead of me... I expect you to be prego this cycle so I don't have the opportunity to have mine before you as I promised... ;) ...no pressure though... lol!