I hate Facebook!

Sometimes I just hate Facebook. For a few days there was a post going around called Baby Loss. Basically it was to call attention to miscarriage and that it was some taboo topic. You were supposed to add it as your status if you or someone you knew had suffered a loss. I saw that posted by two friends and was just pissed. I know that neither of them had a loss so I didn't think that they had the right to talk about it.

I obviously didn't change my status to this. Mainly because nobody knows that we had a loss and because I don't want to tell people that aren't my very close friends about it. I just wanted to yell through the computer at them that the reason that nobody wants to talk about it is because it's hard! Would you go up to someone whose child died of, say SIDS, and ask them to tell you about their loss? NO! Then why would you expect someone who suffered a loss while the baby was still developing to want to talk about it? Answer, we don't! Sure, it's like any other death in that you need to talk to someone or maybe vent about it in a blog so that you don't keep your emotions all bottled up inside, but the world doesn't need to know.

The other reason I hate Facebook, jealousy. I found out that a friend from high school who I haven't even really talked to in years is having another baby and guess when she is due? Three days from when my EDD was. I saw that and was just crushed. Now she posts periodic updates like that she got to hear the heartbeat and how amazing it was and she's going to find out the sex of the baby soon and I just can't help but think, that should be me! I was doing good and not counting and figuring out how many weeks I would have been now or what the baby would be like now had things worked out, but now I have a constant reminder of exactly what I would have been going through. It's enough that I almost want to de-friend her so I don't see it, but I really am happy for her. Some days it just makes me want to cry though.